My mind feels really overwhelmed these days and I’m having a truly difficult time articulating my thoughts into words. Thus I begin, I will try my best.
What is cluttering my mind? Now, as in the past, I feel paralyzed by the amount of pressure that I put on myself. My procrastination is beautiful and tragic, and my mind begins to snowball. My plight is not so bad, but i see it as life-ruining at times, which is exactly what paralyzes me. I need to straighten myself out. I guess I am, and I have… and I’m proud of myself. That’s what I have to tell myself: I’m going to be fine.
Helping others fulfills me but I get so caught up in it that I often forget about my own self. My priorities are sometimes out of line. And that’s OK too.
My downfall is directing energy toward something or someone that doesn’t give back to me. This is a very abstract, vague concept but you must know what I mean. That’s why I love my friends so much, because they give back to me. Even though my number of “best friends” is laughed at… they are all truly “best” worthy. We’re closer than most and I’m lucky to have such quality and quantity.