I feel overwhelmed with material & the sustenance that complicates life– I don’t know really where to begin. For starters, I found some saved drafts on my blog from the past 2 weeks that were never published… pathetic, really:
“It’s Thursday afternoon and I’m sitting here…”
“I can’t remember the last time I went this long without writing in my blog… Japan, perhaps? I see a trend in my life when I don’t write: It’s only when I have too much material to blog. I guess I feel overwhelmed and I don’t feeling like sorting though everything, which is what blogging often forces you to do.”
“Wow, I guess since I don’t feel like recounting my life for the past week and a half, I’ll just give you the scoop on me at this very moment.
It’s 10:45 in the morning and I’ve been up since 8 feeling sick. Sick, but I’m not unhappy, if that makes sense at all… I’m lying in my nook…”
It’s better I didn’t post these right then, for 2 reasons: so that I can poke fun at myself right now, and so that no one stumbled upon my blog and stumbled forward just as quickly due to the lack of constructive content and talented writing it would appear to contain.
“Outta sight, outta mind.” Why can is it so easy for some to feel hurt and angry after not hearing from someone for a while? I feel a struggle to keep in contact with those I love; it becomes impossible to stay caught up and close to everyone. I would spend all of my time doing so, and the time I had left in my day I’d be exhausted! Is my faith in my relationship with my family and friends naive? I don’t feel it necessary to talk to them as often as I’d like in order to keep our loving relationship… I don’t feel upset when I don’t hear from them as often as I’d like, either, because I love them just the same, and I know when we see each other things will go straight back the way they’ve always been–the way they’ll always be.
I’ve admitted that I’ve been bad at staying close to these people, and I just want to throw out a huge
I LOVE YOU.
and tell you that we’ll talk very soon. With all the forms and modes of communication, there’s no excuse to miss someone like this.